It's what I predicted. Don't care anymore. Time to move on with my life and be happy without it.

Where has my life been?

So this past week, I just had PCN from 5 pm - 11 pm. Oh man, I can tell you this was stress fun. But to get straight to the point on what's irking me right now, is that I'm academically unmotivated. Like as of right now, I feel out of place because I just got out of "vacation" and so it seems. It kinda sucks because I have two midterms this week and I have to get my ass back on it. So I think I'm just going to hit the library from now and see wassup cause I need to get back into school mode quick. I played around too much the first 3 weeks and it's almost coming down to half of the quarter almost being done.

As of right now, a lot of changes are being dealt right now with me. I'm trying to stay at my best, and it's truly working. I just need to get back into reality and face the challenges that I'm about to face soon. Bring it on, school.

The Road to Recovery

As days go on, you think it's getting better,
but for me it isn't.
I'm keeping this smile, cause without you in my life constantly
just honestly feels much better.

I guess it's time for me to move on and find me something new.
And I'll tell you the truth, I ain't happy with the things I have right now.
But looking forward to new changes makes me feel much better.
It's what keeps me smile; that real smile you see everyday...
And it's a shame that it isn't you that makes me smile as much anymore.

Your life. My life. I'll keep mine. and I'll let you live yours.

Just let me live mine.

I need to clutch. Start focusing on school and just do it.

No more "vacation" mind set. I have to realize that I am in school-mode.

That is all.

The Kickoff

I can't feel this way anymore. No more being careless and stoic. I need more positive energy to keep me moving and it agitates me that I feel lazy and chill especially when I just came back from Spring Break.

Like I mentioned earlier in my past blog, I'm overcoming a lot of changes and I'm sick of tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of shielding my emotions towards people and I miss the real me.

All I can do is that I can stay optimistic for the mean time and keep truckin' for this spring quarter. Yeah I have less units this time, but I can't stay comfortable. I have a lot of extracurricular activities as well as other commitments that I'm planning to make to keep myself busy this quarter. I can't let my emotions take over this time, and I realized that it was a regret that I made my winter quarter. I knew I could do SO much better if I didn't focus on personal problems. I should just let my passion drive this quarter, because I know I'll attain true happiness when it'll show in the future. I have the fire inside of me and so let it be.

Can't let shit get to me. Never. Cause I know I'm stronger than that. I'm Edward, and I don't let shit get to me.

I need to step up at this point and be a man. Do what it takes to survive and succeed because this is what I'm feeling for. This passion to do well in school which is for my future is on fire and I want to keep it that way. Nothing is going to stop me, nothing.... I'll do whatever it takes to reach my dreams. And someday, I will attain them. No one will ever stop me. I'll keep going. Just watch me.

Bringing some things different to the table

Oh man, today felt so tiring. I'm still tired after taking a nap! haha!

So there are things I'm bringing back differently this quarter; not so much of academics but things that have to do outside academics. I think last quarter I spent so much time on academics, that I literally went crazy. I have to admit that I didn't really balance myself out to do other things. Stress was taking its toll and I realized that over spring break I need to do other stuff other than academia life.

Today, I worked out at the gym with Aaron. I'm glad I found a person that has the same strength level as me. Oh man after working out, I already feel my body being sore. This whole day, I think that's what's really making me tired...my body.

After that, went to recycle some stuff and cleaned the apartment a bit. Made like 20 bucks off of plastic bottles. Then went to the bank to deposit money.

Kuya Ian called and we went to go get Frozen Yogurt and yogurt creations. Then went window shopping, hahaha. Too bad we didn't find anything cause there's not much selection in SLO. It hella sucks.

OH and random, but I got unlimited texting! Hella sick tho! I've been going crazy with texting ever since I got it lololol.

Then I'm here...trying to think what to do..

I think these changes are making me a bit uncomfortable, but I'm hoping to adjust soon. It's hard to stay positive when I'm at this phase, but what can I do? I'm helpless. I'm trying to change for the better and myself. I hope it turns out well...

Good Morning World; it's currently 7:11 AM

I'm currently eating a croissant and chocolate milk. What else is good in the morning though?

You're probably wondering why the hell I'm up this early. Well I slept early last night for the first time in years, to wake up for my mother's work. I kinda don't wanna say it on here to jinx on what's going to happen (don't worry it's a good thing), but I'll tell you if everything works out.

Anyway, today I have a dentist appointment at 12 PM. I'm hoping I don't get cavaties..Last time I didn't and I hope I don't have them again.

Hmm I plan to memorize my lines today for PCN and work on my costume. I bought materials last night and it was a challenge for me to buy it myself. Had to call Mike and Ryan for input since the spray paint didn't work on brown cardboard. It just looked like it was wet wtf. I just bought gold kid paint instead.

I also have to start packing for Frisco. I have to decide when to leave and stuff...Bah

Probably going to get pho today after the dentist since I have the car the whole day. Haha!

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OH and I got my grades last night. At first I wasn't too happy on what I got, but took the time and think about all the stress and tears I had to go through to get these grades. Although these are the grades that I wasn't shooting for, I think it's reasonable enough to deserve these grades. And if you guys wanted to know what I got, let's just say I managed my 3.0 for the quarter. I still think that isn't good enough, and that is why ladies and gentlemen, there is spring quarter to improve again!

Have a good day.