Life is unfair..

So then I deal with it.

I hate it. Whenever my mom asks me what's new, I tell her about Study abroad. She totally discourages it, and it irritates me that I can't have my full freedom yet. Yeah I don't have the exact money, but I can compensate it for later. It sucks because the two main reasons she always says is that 1) The economy sucks and I don't completely understand. 2) Because my friend Ryan is going, so I want to go to.

And everytime we talk about this we end up arguing and then leaving it off again. She's friendly about it one day and then really mad about it the next.

Sometimes I hate being where I'm at right now (status wise). Time can be slow, yet we always think its fast.

She actually wants me to stay home over the summer and just take summer school classes and work. I'm not too happy of this, but if this is the last resort then I'll have to. -_-

I need a break from school.

And then there was 3...

So I've been thinking about what really matters to me most when I'm at college. I have ranked 3 of them and I'm hoping I made the right priorities.

1) Health
2) Education
3) Family/Friends

Hmm, what do you think?

I miss the way how things used to be..

Honestly, I haven't felt this way since high school. I never thought this would come to it, especially when it reached rock bottom last week. I couldn't really concentrate on my studies (mind you I had 2 midterms and a quiz).

Somehow I wish I can get out of this situation, but the only way how is to slowly fade away from people. I have no time to dwell. I have to push myself forward to bigger and better things. I hate it when I'm in circles and there's no way out. I'm praying to God that hopefully soon enough, things will fall into place and everything will just be the way it is.

I'm sick of tired and complaining. But how do I stop when factors arise especially when the situation has no conclusion.

I need out.

Stuck, and it feels like there's no way out.

I will stop dwelling. I must move on.