FYI: I've changed.

And I have no shame in admitting this.

What's really there to look forward to?

It's that time again. Today, I feel like I should get my life back on track despite the summer fun and brain dead occurrences.

It'll be my 3rd year in college, and I feel like there's really nothing to look forward to, since there has been a lot of changes. I mean, really I can't blame them, but it happens for a reason. I know I feel confident for myself, but the people around me that I once thought they would be with me until my college career is a doubt according to all these circumstances that have been happening. I know I'm kinda being vague right now, but I really don't want to get too deep since this is personal information.

I think the truth is that I'm excited for myself, but not for other people. I'm glad that I had this summer to feel my independence - away from friends and roommates that whom I used to live with. I feel that I had my private space and I had no one to worry about. I felt comfortable that way, this summer.

But whatever, what is there to look forward to. Friends, events, people??...No. The answer to that, ladies and gentlemen, is my future.

Many changes and more to come

I realize that there are many different things that I can't change. But the thing that keeps going is myself.

What I'm saying is, is that I know for a fact I can change myself. And really, I shouldn't feel guilty for doing it.

I'm not sure if I'm ready to go back yet. But when I do come back, just know that I'm ready. I'm not going to make the same mistakes again. Bet on it.