It's what I predicted. Don't care anymore. Time to move on with my life and be happy without it.

Where has my life been?

So this past week, I just had PCN from 5 pm - 11 pm. Oh man, I can tell you this was stress fun. But to get straight to the point on what's irking me right now, is that I'm academically unmotivated. Like as of right now, I feel out of place because I just got out of "vacation" and so it seems. It kinda sucks because I have two midterms this week and I have to get my ass back on it. So I think I'm just going to hit the library from now and see wassup cause I need to get back into school mode quick. I played around too much the first 3 weeks and it's almost coming down to half of the quarter almost being done.

As of right now, a lot of changes are being dealt right now with me. I'm trying to stay at my best, and it's truly working. I just need to get back into reality and face the challenges that I'm about to face soon. Bring it on, school.

The Road to Recovery

As days go on, you think it's getting better,
but for me it isn't.
I'm keeping this smile, cause without you in my life constantly
just honestly feels much better.

I guess it's time for me to move on and find me something new.
And I'll tell you the truth, I ain't happy with the things I have right now.
But looking forward to new changes makes me feel much better.
It's what keeps me smile; that real smile you see everyday...
And it's a shame that it isn't you that makes me smile as much anymore.

Your life. My life. I'll keep mine. and I'll let you live yours.

Just let me live mine.

I need to clutch. Start focusing on school and just do it.

No more "vacation" mind set. I have to realize that I am in school-mode.

That is all.

The Kickoff

I can't feel this way anymore. No more being careless and stoic. I need more positive energy to keep me moving and it agitates me that I feel lazy and chill especially when I just came back from Spring Break.

Like I mentioned earlier in my past blog, I'm overcoming a lot of changes and I'm sick of tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of shielding my emotions towards people and I miss the real me.

All I can do is that I can stay optimistic for the mean time and keep truckin' for this spring quarter. Yeah I have less units this time, but I can't stay comfortable. I have a lot of extracurricular activities as well as other commitments that I'm planning to make to keep myself busy this quarter. I can't let my emotions take over this time, and I realized that it was a regret that I made my winter quarter. I knew I could do SO much better if I didn't focus on personal problems. I should just let my passion drive this quarter, because I know I'll attain true happiness when it'll show in the future. I have the fire inside of me and so let it be.

Can't let shit get to me. Never. Cause I know I'm stronger than that. I'm Edward, and I don't let shit get to me.

I need to step up at this point and be a man. Do what it takes to survive and succeed because this is what I'm feeling for. This passion to do well in school which is for my future is on fire and I want to keep it that way. Nothing is going to stop me, nothing.... I'll do whatever it takes to reach my dreams. And someday, I will attain them. No one will ever stop me. I'll keep going. Just watch me.